20060928

i can't feel you..

if only i can't feel anything at all.


in jest; [7:50 PM]

20060927

Mr Lau:

stoning for a moment and frownin to himself in that confused manner..

"Do i say Esprain..?"


in jest; [11:54 PM]


i was listening again... this is Cannonball by Damien Rice.

>< im like suddenly crazy over it la itsa damn nice song><
lyrics
fanlisting



anyway, today's msn features were interesting.

the most ridiculous contracts in sports history

what its like to date the girl of your dreams

Is he your dream date?

notice the difference in comments given by th guys and girls? lol man.

zz busy xian sad tired xian.


in jest; [4:16 PM]


8 mins ago was my brother's birthday, as well as joy's.

Happy belated birthday. (:

seeing the smiles on everybody's face today... it was worth it after all. everybody including me were smiling.

we've not seen that for a long long time have we..

sometimes we take people around us for granted and we no longer realise that time spent together could be much happier.. like it used to be.

xian. been so upset lately, today was really heartwarming.

it's like some feeling that i have lost touch with for some time now.

by the way, thanks jiang ning for the talk (: (:


in jest; [12:13 AM]

20060924

heyyyie

RULE:
#o1. come up with 15 real things abt yourself
#o2. come up with 5 fake things abt yourself
#o3. jumble them all up and make it into a list.
#o4. tag five people after you're done.

#o1. i have ever two-timed
#o2. i used to like this girl
#o3. i want to do art when i grow up
#o4. i pon school and my parents know it
#o5. i only started wearing skirts in sec 3
#o6. i've never changed handphone number
#o7. i dream about people before i've even met them
#o8. the ratio of my female sweethearts to my male sweethearts (friends) is exactly 1:1
#o9. i don't eat mutton cuz my mum says don't
#10. i dislike saturday afternoons
#11. i read slash
#12. i look at kids and girls more than i do guys
#13. i'm on a diet
#14. i hate my hair
#15. i can't wait to go rjc
#16. i take beginner piano
#17. i think a lot
#18. im not afraid of ppl
#19. i like to sing in public even though i know i suck
#20. i sleep on the sofa


in jest; [5:47 PM]

20060923

bzz. how.


in jest; [10:39 PM]


the nova roman myth

here, take a look.


in jest; [6:05 PM]


you sadists???

haha anyways, i didn't realise this stuff was on Utube, till paul told me. Hot man!

rgs teachers day GB skit 2006

Warning: Strictly RGS!

part 1


part 2


x) yay! by the way, if you wanna see more of the performances on that day i.e. MR TOH SINGING, go here mwahahha ^^


in jest; [3:01 PM]

20060922

xian. too tired to care already.. bzzz. only regret is that i missed assembly, which sounded fun.. x) haha.

so anyway i tried to talk to them -- don't say i didn't try -- but it turned out like how it always did.

too bad for me, i guess. what's in a family?


in jest; [6:59 PM]

20060920

If you define Beauty with luscious red lips, bright large eyes, and a curvaceous body (or in your case an anorexic one), then Venus is definitely not a beauty.

Just like Man has mistaken their lust/infatuations/puppylove as Love, we hold an illusion of the God of Love.

She is simply a female God with plain and average looks, and a petite figure, not particularly voluptuous or skinny. She doesn't have perfect hair; brown locks fall in her face and around her shoulders, tangled at some parts. She doesnt dress up (not to mention scantily); dull cream-coloured robes hung loosely on her small frame. She doesnt ooze charisma, she doesnt radiate warmth.. she doesnt knock people out with a mesmerising flutter of eyelids. she's just so.. plain.

The God of Love, Venus, the Lovely Venus.

on a closer look, you would notice that at the corners of her eyes are constantly wet -- almost as if teardrops were going to roll down her cheeks. Well they never do. besides, with the unexplainably beautiful smile on her face, who could ever imagine her in tears?

the Venus described here is purely my own version and has nothing to do with the 'real' one in Greek(or is it Roman) Mythology


in jest; [4:44 PM]


today i was slightly upset. (:

haha ok lah very upset.. the last time i got so upset with someone was when that bloody teacher cheated my feelings was being such a bastard.

but i was over it quite quickly (: no point harbouring on th past.

so generally im in a quite ok mood..

iwillnotiwillnotiwillnot


in jest; [4:29 PM]

20060917

hello world. how long have it been since i posted?

don't know.. lately i don't feel like blogging what i feel.

hmm, tell u what -- let me just put some random links, k.

in rank of juicyness,

1. zemotion,
showcasing the portfolio of Jingna, student at Laselle, photographer, model, makeup artist, illustrater, writer, translator...

- once an RGS student, but transferred out..
- my absolute Idol
- also someone of whom i'm so damn jealous
- among her photos you'll find one set in which our rg friend Alice (if u guys know her) has modelled: DAMN CHIO SHE LOOKS SO DIFFERENT. lolol.

link by: Jiang Ning my lovely gay partner (: (:

2. shawn lee,
yes.. THIS is the blogging grouns of which you must worship. lolol.. i dunno. i slow? now then realise he got blog. mwahah. feast your eyes on this, fans.

link by: this stranger's blog..lol.

3. pink.sg,
probably you guys would have heard of.. a blog shared among people who openly air their opinions on sexual orientation stuff.

- the liberal and non-celebrity version of Stomp (: go read, the articles are worth it.
- Jayden (those who know him) is also a contributor!

link by: Jayden's blog

4. juuichi
lol.. actually just a place with nice LJ icons and blends. lol where else dyou think i got my pretty DPs? (:

link by: yahoo search

5. Asian Women's Wel... OOPS thats the website of the organisation for my SS PT.

Lol guess that's a signal from my brain t get back t work, huh?


in jest; [8:12 PM]


lonelygirl15 is a Youtuber who has put up a series of videos about "her life", only to be exposed as a fraud later on.

On today's Yahoo..

LOS ANGELES - Lonelygirl15 speaks!

And she says she's amazed at her newfound fame.

"I'm trying to deal with it right now," she told The Associated Press in a phone interview Thursday. "I'm not used to this much attention. It's a little bit crazy for me."

The actress who plays Bree on the hit Internet soap opera is Jessica Lee Rose, a 19-year-old who was born in Salisbury, Maryland, and moved to New Zealand when she was eight.

Just three months ago, she was one of thousands of struggling actors in Los Angeles looking to make it big in the movies or on a TV show.

Today, she is the unlikely star of a series of short Internet videos posted on Web sites such as YouTube and MySpace.

Rose was identified after fans of the "Lonelygirl15" videos began to suspect that Bree, the 16-year-old home-schooled precocious teen hosting the segments, didn't exist. Some fans who helped boost the popularity of the videos felt betrayed by what they feared was a hoax perpetrated by a big Hollywood studio to promote some upcoming film.

Amateur sleuths unearthed clues, and stories about the show appeared in the New York Times, Los Angeles Times and other publications, finally forcing the three creators of the Lonelygirl videos to fess up.

While efforts were made to shield Rose's identity, she made her public debut Thursday.

Rose left New Zealand and returned to Maryland in 2005 after her parents split and later that year moved to Los Angeles to study acting at the New York Film Academy.

After graduating in April she started scouring various Internet sites for auditions and came upon a listing on the Craigslist Web site for a project called "Children of Anchor Cove."

"At the time I really didn't know what it was because there wasn't a lot of details on it," she said. "They just said it was an independent project."

After reading twice for the role, she was offered the part.

The show's creators made her sign a nondisclosure agreement, then told her the project was not a film or a TV pilot, but a series of Internet videos.

Rose became suspicious.

"I was hesitant because it's something I've never really seen done before," she said. "I just finished film school and had been taught to be careful of all the scams in L.A. and all the scary people and don't trust people. I was a little nervous."

Rose said she had never checked out YouTube and never watched a video blog. She began looking at the site after she got the part and became more comfortable with the project.

"I figured, what did I have to lose?" she said.

Rose said she pays close attention to comments made by fans and especially the angry response videos posted on YouTube after it was revealed that the Lonelygirl15 videos were not the authentic musings of a teenage girl.

"I can understand their disappointment," she said. "I'm sure they did invest a lot of time in the Lonelygirl15 videos. I feel bad that they invested in it emotionally and were disappointed.

"But Bree is still a character and she's still going to continue with this online series and they can continue to watch if they like. You can't make everybody like you."

Rose said she still does not have an agent and has not yet been offered parts by big Hollywood studios. Her favorite actress is Nicole Kidman and she says she would love to make the kind of movies made by another role model, Cameron Diaz.

"I'd love to be doing fun, goofy movies," she said, "feel-good movies that make people laugh and make people happy. I'd love to do some dramatic pieces later on."

But she vows she will stay with Lonelygirl15 as long as the project continues and won't leave to chase her newfound fame.

"I won't leave it. I won't leave them," she said.


Although i have not been watching her from the start and will not understand why the others (who did) are so furious about this whole Fake thing, i think its still a fun thing that this girl is doing and should go on. If everybody enjoyed the vids, why the fuss? She's cool, man. Stop taking everything so seriously..

one of my favie vids from her: Grillz


in jest; [2:48 PM]

20060913

almost surreal?

this life, i can't feel it.


in jest; [10:31 PM]

20060908

the world can see what you see of the world, but not how you see it.


in jest; [4:18 PM]


was looking through my received files, and decided its time to post a few pictures about days ive never really blogged about.

Handbells concert: they were so cute..
and even though there was a little friction between us on that night, it was still unforgettable and i treasure the memory.

Photographer and Sender: Siyi


TXY orientation Pursuit Ji Xian: the photo i regretted never taking, and was happy to know someone had it
we were great, and you know it (: (:

Photographer(i think) and Sender: Bo Yuan


Zhipeng's Birthday: all the food, sabo, and fun.
something i've not experienced before.. serious! so thanks a lot alot.

Photographer: Bo Yuan
Sender: Hai Yuan


Raffles London and Paris Trip 2006: (the girls only though)
Learnt so much from it and gained a few friendships too. I want everything to be well, even after. (:

Photographer: unknown
Sender: Kersheng


...sigh? haha.


'The Fall Of The Rebellious Angels' by Frans Floris, 1554, Koninklijk Museum voor Schone Kunsten, Antwerp


"Figure with Meat" by Francis Bacon 1954, Institute of Art in Chicago, Illinois


"The Raft of the Medusa" by Théodore Géricault 1818-19, Musée du Louvre, Paris



"She thinks as much in images as in words, richly and subtly transforming and directing discussion through powerful images"
Go See All Things Beautiful.com now.


in jest; [3:20 PM]


since im stuck at home and miserable, i shall do ten people again. lately theres been so much to say to people, yet not enough opportunities and time..or courage.

1. what to say but thanks? you have always known what to do at times like this (: (: bu kui shi ni.

2. still unsure.. feeling slightly weird. scared, and confused. nice, but scary leh, this feeling. hao?

3. haha with you i really don't know what is this. shouldn't shouldn't.. will try not to.

4. i will be soon over it (: thanks for telling me now i know why you acted like you did.

5. aiya. screw you la.

6. ): won't be seeing you around ler i guess..... must take care ok? rly rly. and study hard (:

7. haha wei Mission ABC. sorry la got obstacle nao then i cannot get to you yet.. must talk to me soon ok! sorry sorry>< >< i got stuff to tell u also

8. wo men liang ge.. haha zhen shi de. you must take care and stop emo-ing ok! smile you CUTE PERSON : D <3!

9. how are you? i miss you alr.

10. please take care lo... haha hope to see you join txy.

haha.. hope certain numbers who are supposed to know i am talking to them will realise i am talking to them -stares at a certain number SIX-

sigh. i hope the world is having fun.

hahaha..


in jest; [2:27 PM]


i'll get caned if i step out of the house for the rest of this week so i'm sorry if i don't turn up for anything.

..but zhicheng i will still try my best.(:


in jest; [1:20 PM]


the fact that i had tried to save it shows how much it means to me. then right before my very eyes you

killed me.


in jest; [1:18 PM]


so.. i tried to pretend it was alright.

that you destroyed my sim card. you could have thrown my phone off the building but noooo you had to break the sim card into two.

i said i could live without a phone, but i never said i could live without my sim card.

for years it has followed me, from primary school till now.. went through with me all my ups and downs. stored the sweetest messages i may never get again. stored the phone numbers of people i may never hear from again. stored in it virtual connections between me and people who may never reach me again just because you fucking broke my sim card.

a handphone number means so much.

you could have done many more of other things and i wouldn't hate you as much as i do now. alright that you try to take me away from the only place i love and the only people i feel happy around anymore. alright that now i've finally found what i'm looking for you want to knock it off my hands. alright that you've been trying to ruin my life, ever since i obtained my PSLE results. alright that you have ruined my whole future-- the only future i ever wanted.

alright... then you break the only item that may turn out to be the only thing i treasure in this life? its not even just an item. its so much more and i wouldn't expect you jerks to understand.

guess what's the best part?
there's nothing i can do cause my life is practically in your filthy hands.

you go on and on about me.. but i am what you made me to be.


in jest; [1:05 PM]

20060906

wahhh siao. my head was still in the clouds, from all the chiobu-ness.. then i came home to realise tmw got this:

mrning 9am: bio make up
noon 12pm: zp birthday celebs @ cwp
afternoon: meet chayyoew + ppl @ SPH
then, 2pm: class gathering

.. im sure i can make it lah!

wl -sinks in seat- im sure holidays are relac la..


in jest; [1:22 AM]

20060904

bouts of <3 and randomness

eve




hm + sy




that whole day at sentosa












jiamings not weird



chi-PT related





in jest; [10:17 PM]


backtrack.
Huixun--Lingying
Haha yay my manda was finally done! Then i reached SPH late everyone was busy bballing.. Zz. After a while, started printing, then th LingYing ppl damn nice lo help me fold and stuff (: (even though partly also because they wanted to use the copier, but they STILL did help) Chayyeow also. :D

That day i was supposed to go out w/ Huiming and Syehyin for celebs of HM birthday on th 5th, butbutbut i busy loh >< At SPH whole day.. End up they come and look for me and we SIAOphotowhore right outside SPH haha..



Huiming: rly rly rly sorry abt th day >< haha then you are still so nice abt it make me feel so bad la! thanks for what you gave me i <3 it! dont compare with what i gave you, cus price cannot measure the thought put into it. the fact that you handmade sth so nice for me means more than any old expensive shit (:

Syehyin: Goodluck for th comp! After tht must treat us OK :D and, looking gd eh? x)

Haha promised to meet them after i was done, then return to SPH. Helped with Lingying's huixun lo, return th favour. Br paid for dinner:D, and then we worked like robots while listening to Xie Chao generate jokes of all colours.. (we gave a colour to each of these: sick jokes, racist jokes, lame jokes, political jokes..) haha he rly damn (Y) loh so many jokes =__= Huan Lin most loved the Sick ones la, zhen shi de.

Halfway, copier broke down so Br had to zao to Zao Bao t print. Hardcore haha he say dont do fin dont go home. End up the ZaoBao printer quality like shit, and he came back with the cover page of Huixun looking like shit also. ): Yiwei's face(on the front page) was striped, and it came off in powder form also, end up on our fingers as good smear-on-Huanlin's-face substance:D :D

Zz everything was done at 11plus and dad came to pick me up...so i didnt meet th duo after all ): ): sigh. Next time? I'm rly sorry><

Another mnth huixun/manda done (: Welldone lingying.

Backtrack.
Teacher's Day
To start off, the school performance was ZZBOMB. haha <3ed everything! from Naomi's song to the "Beatles" performance. From the "Teachers" play (from the roars of laughter we can tell everyone loved it (: ) to the band performances (MR TOH *_*!!!!)..

So, after all that enjoyment, we went separate ways. Some ppl go gai gai, some go their activites, some go back pr sch lo (oh the loyal ones :D ) me and chen went JBLK give TLS and XLS prezzies, then Chen went NanHua and i went... SPH.

Lol>< haha bo bian wht need to go Manda~~ Do do do.. Till around 4, i left to go Causeway, where 6N peeps and Mr Chow were.

Haha.. When i saw everyone sitting in a circle-- so many of them, plus Mr Chow, i almost cried out. It just brings back so much.. Everyone just talked and laughed, like old times. Mr Chow still ever so Big Bully-ish, and Jianhao still so disgusting haha.. The God of Lust? Or was it King of Lust. Whatever..

I missed you guys.

Whatdoyouknow, its the third year already. Everybody has grown, yet remained the same in so many ways. I am so very proud of 6N, that we still always meet up, and visit our teacher.. This flame might no longer be as big as before, but it shall not die out (: (: I <3 u guys.

In a while, popped in Macs to see Sophia and Alistair, with Fiona. Haha.. Words cannot describe how good i felt to see you guys. Those same faces.. same smiles.. The context and feeling might not be the same anymore, as i've not seen you two for a million years,but.. The warm fuzzy feeling remains(: It was so special, between us, in pr 6.

Special it remains, and i look 4ward to Hangout Day(: (:

















i dont normally despise someone after a round.. normally it just dies without ill feelings. but this time round i've decided you are some unworthy shit.


in jest; [1:34 AM]

20060903

Siping's birthday celebrations: <3

Held at downtown east chalet and Chayyeow brought me along =___= then i felt so paiseh cus i didnt bring anything..

Ate and talked, then went arcade. Weilai got drunk, but not terribly. >< Chayyoew, Qingxiang and many others left like 10 plus, ): ): ): ): Played with Siping's couzzies (DAMN CUTE) Then after that a few of us walked around and went to the beach to bitch about bitches : D haha line from Zhicheng.

Then returned to Chalet, some play cards, some sing and play guitar, some watch watch and wait in line for Yuneng to be kicked out of the game. Moments later it was time for Present Opening Ceremony.. Some of those stuff are hilarious but shall not be revealed><

Dunowhatime, everybody bathed (most-body, apparently i didnt cus i hadnt planned to stay and didnt bring clothes><) and got in bed. Two men in particular shared a bed and judging by the groans and laughter coming from them they quite enjoyed it :D Names shall not be mentioned, but because it was in the presence of everybody else, we have photos as evidence (taken by single-man paparazzi Yiwei). :D :D

Went in and out of the room, cus couldnt get a bed and couldnt sleep. At around 5plus or 6 i eventually sat down to play Bridge with the siao ppl who had been playing since the night before. Wanted to stay>< but dad and mum came before i even got any sleep diao =__=

Anyways i wanna thank nice people for making it fun (: Even though i was very extra there (u guys were older, from YINGs, and most fr zhongyang) but i felt included. (: had a great time, even. ><

also a happy birthday wish again to Siping without whom it wouldnt have rocked (: (:

(no pics this time round)


in jest; [10:24 PM]




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Song: Half A Life


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