Although the name Lena creates the urge to be reliable and responsible, we emphasize that it causes a restless intensity that defies relaxation.

This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the solar plexus, and through worry and mental tension.

The name of Lena creates a restless, creative nature that takes you into many ventures, but does not allow you to see things through to a satisfactory completion.

Yours is a versatile, musical, artistic, but independent nature and you must have the freedom to express your creative ideas and abilities to be happy.

An urge for independence causes dissatisfaction and frustration in close relationships and you find the "ties that bind" restricting.

The qualities of this name would find a more constructive outlet in work that involves high-pressure selling or promotional activities, possibly in community affairs, for it contains a positive, driving power.

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Lena => meaning: torch, origin: german, russian, scandinavian

Literal meaning: "keep refrigerated, eat within 3 days"
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"This is the name of one of the four main characters in Ann Brashares' series of books 'The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants'."
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O.O i made it! I MADE IT I MADE IT I MADE IT. its incredible.. i myself couldnt believe it.. thought was dreaming..

ahah. ahahahha. iahhahahha..

dont knw where im gonna go from here on but i know its not gonna be easy.. for example now i feel like doing is to sleep.... at least theres nth to do tmw... other thn class DC. lols man.. can't wait.. 201 here i come....!

XD

rafflesOBSbatchtwoChengHo..

bits and pieces of it floating around in my head, so perfectly clear, so memorable..
i sit here holding my OBS cert..

"OUTWARD BOUND
to serve to strive and not to yield

Certificate of Completion

This is to certify that
Lim Shang Fei Lena

has completed a physically and mentally challenging Outward Bound Course

from 16 January 2006 to 20 January 2006"

the first day is like it has never went.. we were at the jetty, and everyone was so excited..
..
day1
justin teo came to see us off like how form teachers of other classes went to see theirs off.. we were uber high and kept taking snapshots not caring bout what we point the camera at.. it was kinda the first that i've seen the class so high and i was so happy..

i remember seeing Steven even before the whole thing.. he was wearing specs.. i was to Qi like "ayy do you think they are our..(instructors)?" and Qi didn't think so... The cool green guy led us to the MPH where all the other classes were and there was a briefing.. first impression was "they are SO cool", then the cheeky ones raised their hands when other instructors were being called upon.. i can't remember if it was Chu Ai.. haha..

yeap.. anw every1 squealed at the nice toilets..

my first impression of Steeeven was.. serious and wooden, but can really be a fun guy if he loosens up.. then he went on talking abt how Qi was chio-er then me.. haha only ChengHo ppl will understand tht bit i think..

Mr. Stevie Wonder (as Qi called him), went on and on about admin stuff, and i was day I/C =) the MPH was really comfortable and from then on became our temporary storeroom..
we got our food and he went on with the "you name it we have it" thing and Qi was so counting..
he kept messing up the foodstuffs on purpose, and later got his retribution when he met the ChengHo stores door.. hahah jk la..

it went sth like, we were supposed to bring our food over, so mr. stevie wonder here was as clueless as us in getting the door open.. we didnt know he went to in thru the back door, so over at the front Siyi was like banging against it.. then she went "kick it la!" ..then she one leg shoot over.. very on... and dont know it was because of her power or what, but anyway we saw the door open and there were loud sounds -- the outcry from an abused Steven and the smack of the door on his cheek..

hahah poor guy.. first day, within dunno how long of knowing us, then kena whack liao.. siyi was like so guiltridden.. i wanted to ask him if he was alrite as he kept on rubbing at his face but decided i didnt even knw him yet.. his face seemed red and everything but still in shape =P

the day dragged on, he got out of his specs (looked better), changed, we played games like the pass rope and the blindfolded move-in-this-order-without-talking one.. i remember we kept on singin` and singin.. he said i was violent.. hahah.. then there was belaying, with all the Steve Checks and stuff.. he had cool shades.. Siyi had cramps.. Qi and Nandini had to run off..

the cooking.. the tents.. the blahh..

and the day dragged on and i rmb we were kinda guilty of the lagging and stuff.. the reflection.. the talks.. the drill... the beach, the romantic jetty.. the sand-cleaning method.. the him-standing-behind-all-the-while-scaring-us-to-death.. the getting-us-to-sleep..

the stupid siyi who couldnt stop talking...
stevie wonder doing his rounds..
..no i dont know why i keep mentioning him..
the leican who slept next to me..
the feel of the tent..... i want to sleep in the tent again.. i miss the tent so much.. i miss the tent..

the tent..
...

day 2
rise and shine..

time for colour game (whereby the final colour was green and he made every1 knee me),
and the squirrel game (whereby squirrels had to do the two twists on their head and act cute; i was the last homeless squirrel whom he stole the trees from and had to do jumping jacks)

then there was commitment book..

then things was fast forwarded to the tent area.. we did the blindkitties/squirrels thing... then i led Qi around taking pics.. they were so cute.. hahaha.. then ltr they did revenge on us loh.. =___= it was harder cus u cudnt talk to ur partner.. and Steve made them drag us around over and under imaginary obstacles.... hahaha he went around posing with the blindfolded and pointing at their faces to take pics! XD he good! in the end still bully me.. =__= all take off blindfolds liao except me anden crowd around doing funny things to me and snapping pic as evidence.. -___- good loh had fun right you guys.. i want those photos man..

so with the TRUST between us we had to do the climbing in pairs thingie.. Qi helped me all the way up!! with her injury and all.. cmon man cheer fer Qi she is ze bomb ^^ ^^ ^^ whoooots! anw we still took veh long... =.= shudnt have been first.. we took up all their time.. mwahahah.. anw i think every1 did it and there was lotsa talk and encouragement.. =)) i miss those times..

then we learnt kayaking, and i lost my specs in water.. and i was so damn scared when we finally did our drill.. lol.. DAMN scared.. i lost it la, kept on swallowing saltwater.. but Qi was so encouraging.. yay i <3 qi~~~ ^^

__to be continued

sitting here listening to my songs again, and thinking about stuffs.

damn tired... in these past days so much have happened and i've been put through an emotional rollercoaster similar to that of post-taiwan trip..

commitments alone.....
so much's over, so much halfway done, so much to do..
all the same man..

i dont wanna waste time thinking about stuff that will exhaust me even further by attacking my mind and heart..
why bother why bother why bother.. wanna just turn away and give up.. it's not worth it..

well guess what? it's OBS tomorrow..
i don't know what to feel about the trip either...

i have a feeling that most prolly i will come out from it wishing it didnt have to end -- like all the others.
it's just that, i feel drained nw..
i don't feel like "bonding" or doing anything with anybody right now other than maybe plain talking..
i dont want...... ..gotta deal with ppl.. see faces.. blah.
and i dont even knw who's gna be with me.
to be honest, how i feel now is "this plain sux"..
it does..

like who understands man.

stop thinking.
someone get me to stop thinking.

i wanna...

and blahh

surely...

the majority of whats going on in school is not just all to soppy sentimental stuffs....

because, yeah, like you know...
its mainly the work.
=.=

well, lately ive been very busy...
many people have been busy i think.. esp PSLs and prefects..

there were lotsa CAD stuff.. banner houseboards souvenirs cheerbooklets... to get out. materials to get. approvals to gain. things to get out... and OBS takes away one week of banner-painting time so we gotta like... RUSH. designs =___=
and ive been thinking alot about class deco.. but never got the time to really plan out stuff..
taiwan stuff...... =__=
and Jap class is starting again.... i have every reason to need to (10 times) reread every single thing taught in these two years?!?
CCA changes..
BOOKS TO BUY. ...i didnt let my parents know about the loss of books.. rofl.. they'll KILL me.
money to return..
STUFF to plan..
presents to send to taiwan..
hahha..
uniforms to buy..... my mum claims mine are rotting..... (AND SHE COULDNT HAVE TOLD ME SOONER SO I COULD BUY IN SCHOOL)
new topics to understand..
this..
that..
that..
blah..
blahh..

well....
today is friday...
you know what THAT means....

..=__= theres house pract tmw. sigh man..
theres quite abit of confusion amongst house comm members..
so things cannot be efficiently carried out..

..i'm ranting...

well that's just to let you know how much school sucks.

You Guys

yes, i'm writing another post because i have not finished saying what i want to say,
and no i am not so involved with 309 that i have forgotten about my beloved spastics and the rest of the onions.......

how could i.....
...

you know whenever i spend like a day in class, and then happen to see you guys, and we start chatting, joking and going hysterical again, like all the times we do in class, i feel really so damn happy and blessed?

its like this lollipop of a kid...
she licks it happily, and then you come and take the lollipop away long enough for her to cry for you to return it.
by then the strong sweetness of the lollipop would have faded from her taste buds..
and so she hungrily grabs the returned lollipop, and start licking it again happily, once again bringing the familiar candy taste into her mouth...

...
hahaha...
haha.. i really do miss everyone...
i often look at my class, and then in my mind pops up pictures of 201 in class during lessons..
whenever i see an onion along somewhere, and we wave and smile to each other, the familiar tingling in my heart returns.. the one that i always got back in the 201 classroom every morning..
it was the "201 smile"...
unique to you guys...
cause thats the way you guys make me feel..
no one else can give a smile or a wave and make me feel like that..

i was damn sad during the holidays...
i kept thinking and thinking...
i was so scared..
i would lose all of you..
and 201 would cease to exist...
no more Our essence lingering around corridors..

now.. i know that you guys would always be around...
no matter how far or near our classrooms are.....
we'll always find each other somehow, at one corner or another..

then we'll talk like in old times..
play like in old times..
have some extra gossip sessions that's new but great fun..
no matter what the activity is..
when i'm with you guys it is not like with anyone else..
it is then that i always realise all over again,
why i love you guys so much...
hahah..

i like this...
let's keep it this way.......

as in, i can see that most of us really do miss each other... we want to see each other and stuffs..
well, at least to me i can see who are the ones who truly do miss all the rest...
and i think that's what matters......

our hearts are always together
and linked in a way.....
don't you think?

The Class

its been four days into School..
how has it been? this should be a question on the lips of all ex-classmates who have not had the chance to properly chat with you so far..

well, it's been busy..
in the past few days, i've had my share of mood swings as i took on different perspectives about my new class 309`06..

what can i say..
its a.. proper class.. there are quite a number of chiobu, and everyone is generally friendly and approachable. we always laugh in unison, and we are so disciplined that other than these laughter you rarely hear any noise from us....

..which is kind of the problem.
so far most of our teachers who have met us have seen a class that giggles in amusement over the slightest joke, but maintains absolute stubborn silence under any circumstances. it includes when we are asked questions.

not a very... active or initiative class..

also, from here we can see that we're not really comfortably close enough. believe or not, there aren't really any cliques forming yet, so far as i can see. there are certain times when we get high, but thats that.

i have no complaints about our class, really. we're good. really good. they have really good discipline that i have never seen in class 20105, and work together really well.. it always feels as if we are as a class.

..but the bond is not there.
i dont know why... the bond is not there..

it is the starting of the year... i know that. but it just feels so weird...
maybe we need more time..
more time and slow progression..
i will.. will grow to love the class.
=]

we have really cute classmates, and several very impressive ones. so when we get interactive, class is so fun sometimes. i just hope everything will go ok...
on the second day, i was made the Deco Head or something, and my gang includes Valerie Yashan and Wanqi! well, i was made to lead the class into a monitored discussion for 1 and a half hr... it was the first time ever i had to do something like that man.. >.<

"we must show care, concern and <3>>

it just came to me, cause i felt it's one thing that might bring the class together... and i really hoped everyone could accomodate to one another.. you know, really care how something affects your classmate, and compromise with each other.. it's just.. i really really really want the class to bond!!! XD

sigh.. anyway i was put in a position for a while.. but in the end everything turned out ok and im very happy bout that.. =D its the most important thing anyway... i shall do my best fer class deco!! ^^

we have this temporary class comm...
chairman Kevy, vice SzeYen, secretary and treasurer.......darn. =__= never mind..
anyway they are a responsible lot la.. Kevy has been really busy with PSL stuff lately and stressed out i think, missing lessons and dealing with stuff etc.. so Sze Yen always took up the initiative to get things done and she's really xi xin about things.. she was saying how Kevy had enough to deal with already... and i think thats really sweet..

little things that people do for each other can really warm a person's heart..

if i had a choice i want Sze Yen for chair!! XD but i'm afraid that it would be unfair to her and all.. having to take up responsibilities two-year straight.. ..and, SOME PEOPLE LIKE HER AND QI~ HAVE THIS WARPED NOTION ABOUT VOTING ME.. O.O
kinda scared.. do i look like chairman material to you?!?
aaaaaahhhhh..
-smacks Qi-
haha.. =__= let's see how things go ok....

let's talk about our teachers... i've done a lot of teacher-gossiping with the spastics lately..
Form and Math -- Justin Teo
English -- Joseph Toh
Lit -- Huang Si Juan
Chem -- Michelle Toh/Ang
Bio -- Ms Ang
Phys -- Cheryl Seow
Chi -- Lv Lao Shi
SS -- Michelle Ng
PE -- sean yeoh

ok... -breathes in-
I WANT JASON NG AND PATRICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T.T
not faiiirrr!!! 301 to 305, basically all and only the geog classes, got him fer biology la~~ =.=
chen was like.. "woot the..."

hahah.. and.. jason ng.. i saw him today in assembly...
he still looks the same and i kinda miss him... =___=
must go and see him sometime....
i really hope the other girls in his classes don't bully him loh..
201 had been really mean to him last year.. even though there were fun and good times..
but yeah, chen's already started this campaign of building him a better reputation..
he's really a wonderful teacher, one who really cares about his students, and i am still touched by the stuffs he do..
his lessons are fun..funny too, and i really miss those times..

sigh..
nothing can be done i guess...
for Onions who got him again, do cherish these bit of time with him yeh? ^^

its not that our teachers are not good...
im quite happy with our teacher allocation actually...
i mean, Justin Teo as form teacher!!! XD
mwahahaha.. we've had fun sharing sessions, and he's really cute in some ways..
i don't know if anyone has noticed, but his smile and one particular expression really reminds me of Xie Zhi...
you know, the dimpled smile...? and his Yan Shen..
hahaha.. and he aint open towards homosexuality!! =P
dont ask how we know that..
Qi says he looks like this Particular cartoon and has been going on about it forever since..
man, i can't wait to watch his video end of year !! >.<
>

one word to describe Joseph Toh would be.
FUNNY.
woots! he rawks la... first time he kame into our class, it was a mistake.
-steps in and holds the door- "am i in the wrong class?"
"YESS"
-goes out-
hahahah damn funny.. he was all blur and stuff.. and he forces us to greet him weird.. ^^
even whn he's not trying to be funny, he is.
strict, but real cool man..

ms huang.. well i dont know what to say about her! the lesson was not really particularly memorable or whatever, but its just that ive always had encounters with her, but never got her as a teacher.. some others who got her last year were freaking out when they realised she took our lit class... everything turned out ok anyway.. we'll see! X)

mrs toh is damn CUTE. hahaha.. she's all slang and cool.. chatty, bubbly.. and really reminds me of ms wong.. she tries to rmb names on the first day and failed terribly though XD but yeah chem class shouldnt be bad..

MS ANG. man.. you guys know her?? when i first stepped into the class and saw her, i was like "what is this little girl doing in our class...?"

SHE TURNED OUT TO BE OUR TEACHER. i mean, Justin Teo did warn us that she's really young and threatened us against bullying her and stuff, but he didnt say that.....!!
anyway, she's not very tall.. ok she's short. haha.. and she has this cute hairstyle like my mortal.. i don't know how to describe it.. and she wears specs and has this really really really INNOCENT look on her face!!! she looks like sec1!! hahahah.. aktl i think shes just a few yrs older than us... ex-rgs student, and is our temporary Bio and CLE teacher..
she gets really noticeably nervous sometimes..
i think we're the only ones who got her...?? this is so interesting!

cheryl seow... hahah not much comments la... we had two teachers.. her and sarabjit.. index 1-22 got her.. she's ok.. my deepest impression of her was regarding her talk about the "Xiao" thing.. haha.. typical phys teacher..and we'll have to stay tuned for more on her..

lv lao shi is really special.. she speaks to us like a mother, and often brings up examples from a student's or parent's point of views, and she's often right, makes lotsa sense, AND still makes us laugh.. hahaha.. she reminds me a lot of Tang Lao Shi... i miss tang lao shi!!!! =___= sigh.. but anyway i decide i like this chinese teacher.. a lot..
for the classes that got Huang Ming Xin laoshi.. one word: hahahahah! she's damn cute and funny also.. in a different way... i think there's no other teacher like her.. and she goes around calling me "xiao fei fei tong xue"......DONT ASK. its NOT FUNNY. i don't know what it is with teachers and my name......... Zhang Hao goes "yi zhi niao!" like she has this special privilege of calling me that like its my name..
..but i sure will miss hearing her say it..... ..haha....

michelle ng.. well, who doesnt know her? i did CLE with her several times and sat in her car before as well.. haha i wouldnt dread her classes.. she's abit of fun... =)

sean yeoh!!! WE HAVE NOT HAD LESSONS WITH HIM YET. but i saw him! should be interesting...

i just wanna say..... as i go through the list of teachers now.... i think back to sec1 and sec2, and realise i miss our teachers alot... all the memorable moments in class and out of class... the friendly greetings and occasional encouragement... who knows? sec1 teachers might not even remember our names anymore!

but... yeah.. truth is that they Have taught us, and i won't forget that... many teachers have came and went in this mere two years, some even like Ms Edna Tan and Ms Wu.... well, we'd never forget you, and hope that you would come back.. some time... anytime.. to see us....
...T.T ..for teachers that we still see around the school, i'm glad that we can still smile and wave to you guys along corridors.. times we've had in class, even though most contain boring lessons.. i will keep them always!!

so fast, and we've come so far...

i really wish time can go on slow mo... ..always, we don't particularly savour moments spent in school... yet after a while when we look back, we wish we can replay everything all over again..

that's the way humans are..

i damn scared.....
damn scared..
at the rate that time is flying, wouldn't it simply take me a night's sleep to wake up and find that i am graduating from RGS already?

..damn scared... i suddenly..
i.. really miss everything....

everything everything.. my primary school, one oh one.. two oh one.. china and taiwan trips..
...everything..

.i should stop here before my mindless rambling gets out of hand.

i've been tagged by both Manda and Paul.... XD i'm doing it together!

Rules: Express your Love for SE7EN and get others to know more about you. ;D Copy and Paste the following into your own blog and complete all SE7EN bullets of the SE7EN questions. Then, pick SE7EN ppl to pass it on! Have fun!

SE7EN things that make me smile:
1.neoprint taken in Taiwan
2.the sight of Xiao Long Bao or some other..
3.Oreo mcflurry
4.a camera pointed at me
5.Disney channel
6. Longmao the soft toy
7. to return to YZU

SE7EN ways to win my heart (right now):
1.transform into Longmao the soft toy
2.alternatively, transform into a Xiao Long Bao
3.transform into "____", any from this list of ppl =D
4.buy me air tickets to YZU
5.make me feel cared for
6.be someone i can talk to and have fun with
7.create miracles

SE7EN things I believe in:
1.YZU
2.fairytales
3.having fun
4.achievement
5.having a job that you like
6.being cool
7.my good friend

SE7EN things I'm afraid of that are just BLAH:
1.cockroaches
2.loss
3.forgetting
4.distance
5.fattiness
6.becoming useles
7.death

SE7EN things I do everyday:
1.go on msn, hide behind my offline status and watch ppl change their nicknames continuously
2.surf blogs
3.listen to music which i will die without
4.oversleep
5.eat too much and feel guilty but forget about it later
6.fight with my brother for a particular soft toy
7.make feeble attempts to clean my room

SE7EN people I want to see right now:
1.xiaolongbao
2.tod
3.longmao
4.taiwan guest
5.xuegao
6...
7. PLEASE DONT MAKE ME GO ON

SE7EN people who should also do this:
1.jia
2.chen
3.charlene
4.shuhoosh
5.tingshan
6.cheryl
7.syehyin