letters, soft toys at doorstep, folded paper stars, birthday presents, accompaniment, stalking, waiting, dates, pleads, begs, tries and again, money, tears, injuries, long messages and the longest ever received, sweet moving words, done all that could be done.

things that move people, that evokes certain emotions.. but they are anything but love.

when i get round to understanding that, i finally realised that i've been wrong all along. that sometimes no matter how hard you try, how daring you are, how eligible you might be.. if she doesnt like you, she doesnt.

all that crap about how after three years she finally realises that happiness has been within reach all along, and that her long time suitor is the best for her?

thats one in a million.

in turn, im not ready to believe those stories.

its time to get a move on, cause i'm not one to do silly stuff (: ok, not extremely silly stuff.