fuck i'm damn pissed.

i hate people who like, know that they mean a lot to you, and just go all the way to be mean such that they hurt you much deeper than anybody else does.

and fuck im damn pissed at how i can't use my own room, my own comp, or sleep my own bed. i sleep on the sofa 4 out of 5 nights, and my files are scattered among the three computers in the house cause i fucking dont have my thumbdrive and i have to go around sneaking turns on everyone else's comps. everytime i try to use a computer someone fucking tells me to go away.

fuck you. and everyone pretends that nothings happening.

good. thanks a lot.

im pissed about the way i handle things. about the way my life sucks. the way i always try to look at things positively but the world just collapses anyway. the way life and me hate each other with equal fervour.

its not my life that sucks, really. i think its just me.