Today was the competition at SPH, and i freaked out BIG TIME. haha i dont know what's up with me la.. i sang the song repeatedly last night.. and this morning i felt great.

Its the room, i tell you. It's the scariest place i've ever walked into. There were directions what to do, and there was an "X" you had to stand on and SING in front of like, 10 people and a photographer? >.< >.< wl!!!! i freaked out la i breathed in, breathed out, breathed in again, sang halfway and stopped. for good.

The guy was really nice about it but it doesnt change the fact that THEY ARE SCARY. T_T

Ok i shall stop that. The conversation went like that:

Guy: I'm not going to eat you! Ok, would you like to tell me why you are so nervous?
Me: (in a barely audible voice) Uh.. Because.. this.. I.. then.. very scared lo..
Guy: Ok you take a deep breath, calm yourself down. Would you like to choose another song by a female artist, and start afresh?
Me: ....
Guy: Ok what songs do you usually listen to?
Me: Songs by male singers?
Guy: Ok so who's your favourite singer?
Me: Uh, (randomly taking one from the long list) Jay Chou?
Guy: Ok so why dont you sing something from Jay Chou?
Me: UHHHHHHH. (thinking: Shit shitshitshit what?!?! YI FU ZHI MING?! GUI JI OH NO SHIT I FORGOT HOW TO SING GUI JI OMG DIE.) UHHHHHHHH..
Guy: Ok you need some time?
Me: huh?
Guy: as in you need some time to think about your song, and then come back here?
Me: oh you mean i go out and return?
Guy: yah maybe after the next person or whenever you feel comfortable!
Me: ok! thanks >.< sorryyyyyy (repeatedly)

I walked away, feeling flushed and dizzy. As the door closed behind me, i heard the comments that they did not bother keeping from me.

"She is too nervous already!"
"Yah, cannot, that's not her true potential.."
"Too nervous and so when she was singing you could see...."

Blah. I don't care if i could get a second chance anymore, i was not going back in there. For the first ten minutes i paced around trying to think of a song. Why, oh why did i never bother learning to sing my favourite songs? Even for the songs which i could sing, i could not sing in key.

Shitshitshit. The next person came out. Then someone else went in. Then she came out. Someone went in again. I was still pacing around. The someone came out.

Ok, im not going in there again, i decided.

So no matter what everyone else said i never stepped on that X again. "It's a NIGHTMARE, i told them."

There were some pretty good ones.. Nice voice. Yay jiayou for semi finals! x) i'll be back to watch you guys (:

Lydia went for a second chance.. I really admire her courage. You go girl! Don't let anything falter your love for singing i am beeehinddd youuuuu!!! ^^

Sigh yup so that was it. i think i was the only person who did that. hahahah PRO NOT. wl it was really scary... but a great new experience. how many people get soemthing like that?? hahaha.. and it was with manhua ppl also..

unforGETtable.. rock on. (: