heya..

haven't been blogging so much have i?

i'm currently feeling.. abit high, abit low.

high because..
rgdebate camp was the bomb;
things at home are getting better;
there's no school tomorrow;
i keep thinking about someone..

low because..
i read a number of blogs... and a few affected me.
one by a stranger... sort of.
one by an acquaintance i dont really care about.
one by a friend whom i do care about...
and one by a good friend whom i care a lot about.

hah..

actually, there are more reasons to feel high than low, but it is like that -- in case of clash between Mr. Happy and Mr. Sad, sadness and desolation easily dominates over happiness.

you know these things, they like to accumulate? they are unfortunately not shortlived like happiness.

i don't exactly know why either.. its kind of weird when i start feeling sad for no reason again. up till a few minute4s ago, i could account for every single negative emotion i've encountered in these few days.

this is probably one of those things about myself that i've yet to know.

oh, and i miss london and paris.

miss the trip and everyone badly ..

..
i miss my roommate linlin
i miss the cool buildings
i miss the awesome folks there
i miss the high
i miss the sea of blond hair
i miss the beautiful places
i miss the telephone booths
i miss the teachers
i miss the museums
i miss the tube
i miss just going around like that..
i miss the feeling.
i miss the breeze
i miss how we sit on the grass and just stone
i miss the sketching
i miss the lampposts
i miss the policemen and their cute uniforms
i miss the art shops
i miss the souvenir shops
i miss taking photos
i miss lugging the bags around
i miss the small 'parties'
i miss the bridge games
i miss the shouting at each other
i miss the inherent bit of friction
i miss everything everything on the my daily happy lists
i miss the euros i miss the pounds
i miss every little bit of the place
i miss every single one of you guys even the music ppl
i miss the frikkin eiffel tower
i miss the MEAL at the eiffel tower
i miss the views
i miss.. every single bit of it.

just like how i miss taiwan.

just like how i miss china.

i miss, also, the genting trip that the family went on. the thailand, the malaysia, the hongkong.

happiness is so goddamn shortlived.