bear with me. if anything, it's celeste chen's fault. i can't close her blog because of that song. and this continuous replay is having a very large impact on me.

....

go and have a listen.

why does it only have to be right before death that your life 'flashes before your eyes'?

now, when i close my eyes, i can i see my whole life put on fastforward right before me. flashes of the most important moments in life, the big the small the memorable the not. the little bits made up so much.. i've once been living these images, and yet now they are only what i can conjure from memory.

inevitable i know, but that doesnt mean it don't hurt.

if we often look back and lament on how the old times were so golden, doesn't it mean we are actually living these wonderful moments right now? but why... can't i feel it?
not really.. in a way i can't.

every single one of you who have stepped in or stepped out of my life, the footprints remain. you forget me i forget you, eventually. i may not remember your face or your name, but the footprints remain. still.

i keep in a locked up musical box the littlest memories that you never even recalled.

flash. flash. flash. flash.

i think i'm gonna get a headache.

treasure, kids.