you knw the way like after a loss it takes you a hella long time before the pain really goes out of view?

like, i dont knw.. like hw it happened tht other time.. ....and nw tht i think abt it.

its nt pain.. is it? i dont knw. theres still sth there. sme hole tht it used to take up. and over 3 yrs its still there.

so u knw wht? i think this time this bigger one is here to stay.

haha, "it will go away?"

who was i kidding man.

i hate my life.