relationships between people. how they fluctuate. the irony in contrasting views. memories you need to claw at as a desperate attempt to forget. blah blah blah.

so tired of this. oh stop reminding me. the funny thing is that, i always think i am expressing myself. but in reality, nobody knows what i am talking about. not even myself. the mind is such a complicated thing that, if i were to be able to hold it in my hands like it was something tangible, it would explode due to the too many things it was witholding.

hah.. hahaha.. empty words. empty smses. empty emails. empty sounds. empty mouthing. empty smiles. empty gazes. empty everything.

what really means what? and when people blog about their lives, for example if i were to blog about the class's fighting fish right now, what is the actual meaning in fact?

to recall upon the day's events? for what?
to reflect? that would be nice..
to.. preserve the memory? nice try.

blah blah blah.

empty words.