whoo~! peopplee!!! congratulate me! ^^ whoo! im not confused nemore! ^^ ^^ i dont care more thn im sposed to now.. im normal agn.. my mind and heart is clear as crystal.. no more haze. i can almost see and literally feel my emotions now. what im feeling is plainly nothing.. nothing related anyway. ^^ i know im making you confused, but at least be happy for me that i got no worries now..

i guess it was just a phase. just like similar phases ive gone thru. no wonder it felt so unreal. so untouchable. it wasnt even there in the first place. just some sort of faint illusion held over my head.. u know, cui mian? the chinese compre.. =__= its sort of like a love potion, but.. just that i was fed something else other than liquid.

it just came over me. i was in midst of my unfinished work whn i strted thinking bt it again, and i realised its gone. =) that that that.. horrible feeling. had been fading away all this while. im so darn glad. if i had realised any sooner, i might have started brooding, and started cui-mianing myself again. why i did that i dont knw... how, precisely, proves to be even more of a mystery. its too complicated for myself to want to figure out.

and i aplogise for this post cause nobody.. [as in, really nobody] would know im talking about. but im too happy to think bout this for now. cheeeeerrss!

i shudder to think a phase had so much impact on me, but i will enjoy as much as i can first. worries about future similar phases befalling upon me again shall come later. much later. its EOI time. lol.