i hate pining my hopes.. regardless on what or who. cus i get so goddam disappointed 9 out of 10 times. and its not gd to make a habit out of it anw.

and my parents suck. its cliche, but why can't they try to see from my point of view. i may seem indifferent, but do they really think i will disobey them out of sheer indignance? that im happy doing it? im sipping cup of coffee trying to stay awake tonight la. i thought there would be nothing i hate more than geog. so damn wrong. i hate RS so much i wanna inflict pain on someone to diminish my anger.

of all times, they love picking times when i seem more busy than usual to stand at the side and scold me. they think it doesnt fucking affect me? i wanna hear myself screaming.. wanna see someone bleed. someone cry.. someone die.. wanna bleed.. wanna die.. kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me..