i don't know about you guys, but to me school sucks so much more now than it was during the exams. wut the fuckin hell. every single moment i spend around the school grounds feels like a waking nightmare.. the hatred etched deep within me soul, threatening to burst. i can't believe it lah. i goddam cried 'cause i know im gonna miss the class next year. you tell me, what of the class do i have to miss? the days spent together have been done so rottenly.. most of the time. yet, when i see us together as one, cheering for ourselves.. 201.. and the bloody songs playing in the background.. i just feel so fucked up. i dowanna give a damn.. but we're so memorable...

so we got 3rd for netball. i dont care. we're goddam pro. they came to a draw with the champions again. 204. nah, i got nth against them. siyi is cute. but whatever la.. banner also 3rd. i'm disappointed, honestly. honestly. and of course wanlin is disappointed. we are every bit better than the others la. forgeddit la. dammit dammit dammit. so much for beautiful last memories. dammit dammit dammit dammit. i dont care, after today, im not gonna shed a tear for this stupid separation again. just think normal. or whatever. THIS FUCKING HAPPENS ALL THE TIME LA. U KNOW WHAT I HATE?

of course, it doesnt change that i hate school. right this moment i wanna commit suicide. but since we all know that won't help anything, im gonna go sleep.