you knw yesterday....

band percussion asked me whether i wanted to join them.

hahahha.. its damn ironic.

you know last yr when i was rejected by band.. i was damn angry. angry like hell. at them fer 'deceiving' me and all.. and e rejection was hard to take, cus i really really wanted to join. so just like any other furious loser, i swore that (in any unlikely case) should band percussion one day ask me to join them or need me, i would reject and mock like hell. lol. you know that kind of thing you say to urself when you get dumped and you obviously still like him and secretly wish he would come back, but ur pride tells you No. its not chi bu dao pu tao shuo pu tao suan (you know, cannot eat grape say grape sour? lmao.) ..its more of, e feeling of rejection. plainly.

not that they need me now. hahah i mean far from that la.. they can ask kweky or anybody zai-er then me.. but in a way, they did ask. in fact, anyone who can play will be preferred to their sec1s. so.. in a way i guess.

i gave alot of thought to this know. really. cause up till this year a while ago i was still brooding over the rejection. but when they asked, i was shocked. turned out they lack ppl.... and they got this misconception that CO got all e ppl we need.... hahah.. mayb cus we alwaes go ard in troops. but thats beside the point. the first thing i thought of was "we dont even have enough ppl ourselves....." but of cus i didnt say that.

then i thought abt kweky and the others.. and jiangning and fiona.. and e teacher.. and gillian and shengnan. the sense of belonging... as in, i dont think they expect me to really agree, but i did say i wud think it over. misuzu told me to consider seriously. one guess also would guess that i already have friends down at CO right...

or do they know of my secret very very strong desire fer the band drumset?

hahahha.. man. so many years gone past and some things in my life i still can't figure out whether they are for real...